A holiday without my kids just isn't really a holiday!

It has been a while since I have posted due to technical difficulties, mainly a really old computer and no job to earn money to buy a new one.

I am at my parents today using their much newer computer and enjoying the 4th of July.

Our family is very close and so many of my niece and nephews are here enjoying the swimming pool and eating burgers. Unfortunately my children are at their fathers and will be going to a quarry for their fireworks. I know they will have fun, however I ache that they will not be able to participate in something that is priceless to me. The fun of a large close family!

I grew up spending every holiday with the same aunts, uncles and cousins. We played sports, made up games, had water gun and water balloon fights. It is part of who I am today and it makes me sad that they will be missing out this year.

I know their time with their father is important but I wish his idea of enjoying a holiday was being surrounded by family not strangers watching an exciting fireworks display! But I guess family is family at least they will be with their siblings and with their father who does love them.